“I deserve to be happy.” I have never believed that, and I still don’t, but I’m working on it.
Until this week that wasn’t something I was willing to let myself say, but it has been on my mind for a few years. I’ve tried and failed to be open about this a few times, but this year I decided to do something about it.
“I deserve to be happy” is something that I want to be true, something that I want to internalize. I can’t do that while I’m repressing this aspect of myself, so it’s time to be honest with myself and with those around me.
I’ve spent this week talking to my friends and family and I’m fortunate to be surrounded by people who are so supportive and kind.
I’m not sure what is next for me, but I’m glad I’ve taken this small step.